September is Pediatric Cancer Awareness Month. At PCFLV, we are committed to spreading the GOLD all year long. However, in September, we truly make it our mission. 30 Days, 30 Stories celebrates the children we know and love and the brave battles they fight and have fought, with their families by their sides. In celebrating these beautiful children and their stories, we hope to inspire you to join us in our mission to SPREAD THE GOLD in September and all year long!
Meet my three June babies. Kyle is 32, Korinne is 27, and Kimmy is 21. We lost Kimmy when she was 14 years, 4 months and 2 weeks old.
I have already shared Kimmy's story in a past 30 Days, 30 Stories. I chose not to go into great detail this time. I will just give a brief description of her battle. Her death was most certainly untimely and greatly unexpected. She had Ewing's Sarcoma and went through ten months of chemotherapy and underwent four surgeries. Her last chemotherapy session was September 3, 2009. Mid-October of the same year her scans were all clear and she had started her freshman year at Notre Dame High School. She was a member of the cheerleading squad, the choir, and theatre. She was an altar server for 4 years. Prior to her diagnosis she played volleyball for 5 years and softball for 2 years. She considered herself to be an artist. She was many things, but mostly she was everyone's baby. In other words, she ruled the entire family.
She passed on November 5, 2009 due to "complications" that arose from a misdiagnosed pneumonia.
My husband and I have never felt such pain as the pain of losing our child. Through the love of our family and friends and PCFLV and of course, our faith in God, we continue on. We understand that she is in a better place and that we will all be together when it is God's will. Trust me though, not a day goes by that I don't think to myself a "better place" would be here, messing up the family room with her art and wrappers from her snacks, a "better place" would be here using my make up and expensive perfume, "borrowing" her sister's clothes, arguing with her brother. A "better place" would be in the huge family photos we take at holiday time and special occasions like the Baptisms and First Holy Communions of her nephews. A "better place" would be hanging out with her cousins and always getting her way because she was the youngest of seven grandchildren. Not just our baby, but the whole family's baby. She was and still is the glue that holds our family together.
Kyle and Korinne, along with cousins Tricia, Tara, Trissy, Christina, and Christopher talk about her often. We are still to this day hearing stories that we never knew. They all kept good secrets for her. She was a free spirit and never held back with what she thought.
Her Aunt Tig and Uncle Dudie enjoy sharing the wonderful memories as do her grandparents (Nanny and Pop). I can honestly say that even after 6 years, 9months, 2 weeks, and 2 days not one day goes by that she isn't in someone's conversation and definitely on all of our minds.
Life goes on and we are blessed with three grandsons and soon a granddaughter. My nieces have given us four beautiful great-nieces and one super-cool great-nephew. My husband and I are blessed that our oldest grandson that was four at the time of Kimmy's passing has a very clear memory of his aunt Kubby. We are filled with such joy when he shares a memory or carefully picks up one of her art projects or stuffed animals and puts it away so the little ones don't disturb it.
Each and every day is a struggle, but with family and friends and our faith we manage to survive it and gain a little more strength for the next day. My prayer is that all of you that have lost your baby will gain the strength and peace that God will grant you. Know that I am always thinking of you.
I pray for all of your babies that are fighting the fight. Praying God gives you the strength to battle along side them. Thank you PCFLV for all that you do. You are true angels.